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Roots & Petals: My Self-Preservation Journey

"I have way too much that I really need to get done," I JUST said to myself, as I'm sitting down writing this, ignoring all of it. It's too much to ask for my creativity to hit me in waves at convenient hours, it turns out, so here we are. Welcome back. I've been keeping quiet for a while so I'm warning you now, I've got a lot to say. My focus lately has been entirely on my peace of mind and my journey of self-preservation, but I'm finding that I'm finally ready to tell you about it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the last two weeks, I've removed 4,000+ people from my social media. I've been unfollowing, unfriending, and disconnecting entirely from THOUSANDS of people and pages that were destructive to my mental health for one reason or another. It doesn't make sense to me to keep people around if we're not actively engaged in one another's lives. If we're not checking in wit...

A Letter To My Future Children: You Are Always First

I know very little about being a parent, but I do know that nothing in this world is going to stop me from being the best mother I can be for you. From the minute I learn of your existence, you will be my reason. My reason to push myself, my reason to work hard, my reason to sacrifice, my reason to be even more careful with choosing my words, and my reason to maintain an iron spirit balanced with a gentle heart. I can't promise you an easy life. I can't promise you that you'll never cry yourself to sleep or get so drunk that you can't stand the taste of Jack Daniels from that day forward. I can't promise that the world or the people in it will always be kind to you, but I can promise a lot of things that will make it better. I'll promise them to you now, before your life begins, and I also promise I'll keep my word forever. Promises I promise to remind you that I'm proud of you. Whether it's when you bring home a straight A report card or ...