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All The Things I Never Was

Abstract title, I know. Don't worry. We'll get there. But the first step to getting anywhere is choosing where to start, and I've chosen to tell you this story about all the things I never was by starting with the things I've always been. Stubborn. Submissive. Short-tempered. Cautious. And more than anything, quiet. I've always been quiet. To be honest, I wish I could tell you why. It'd be nice if I could give you a reason or some sort of explanation as to why I am the way I am, but I can't. I don't know if it's even possible, much less how I'd go about it. But none of that matters. My point is, my being quiet has played an indescribable role in creating the 20-year-old me who's sitting here writing this all out at this very moment. Sometimes in the best ways and other times, the worst. But regardless, you ought to know a little bit about why. I was 13 the first time I felt my self-confidence fall drastically. I had invited a f...